Self-Serving

I am always amazed at some things I see and hear. It’s all so stupid and pathetic, Charles Bukowski “We’re all going to die, all of us, what a circus! That alone should make us love each other but it doesn’t. We are terrorised and flattened by trivialities, we are eaten up by nothing.” And that is such a simple yet valuable insight, we draw lines in the sand at such strange and crazy places and I just don’t understand, well I didn’t want to understand because like everyone else, I am guilty of it too. I was made aware of a friend being admonished by others for enjoying a burlesque performance, yet those very same people drink, and drug up and fuck each other over at the drop of a hat, so I guess that line is drawn there… how weird??? So it’s ok to do some stuff and not others…? You see now I need an explanation of just how this table of, what one should like and appreciate and what one shouldn’t like and appreciate, really works. Is it a points system? Do you get plus or minus points, cause I need a starting point, no really I want to know. Maybe there is a calibration from hot to cold? So fucking your boyfriend’s best friend is cold, ok…?, yet a steamy performance by a dancer is hotttt and therefore not ok? Jesus I’m confused, the puritan in me says lets burn all these loose women, kill all the alcoholics and junkies, gas the retarded, napalm the adulterers, and by the time we have taken splinter out of everyone else’s eye, we have no eyes left for all the forest. The truth for me lies in who said what, and who draws the line and where. I posted before, that what you choose as an opinion, says more about you than it does your standpoint, and perhaps your opinion is purely you just angling at a self-serving need, fuck perhaps, that’s exactly what we all do, because as Bukowski put it we are terrorised and flattened by trivialities, and those lines drawn in the sand are just that, egotistical paradigms of self-serving bullshit.

Am I guilty of the above? All the time, but I do try to be aware. Think about it, don’t think about it… that’s up to you, but self service and self-protection aren’t the only way to live, you could just love and support.

ISN'T SHE JUST FABULOUS